The L-Card

Days like these make me wonder about things... like why I go on so many dates but still come up empty on the "lasting relationship" scale.

Seriously, my successful relationship ratio is looking pretty sad right now.

At the beginning of last year, my friends and were sprawled across my bed, laughing about our lives and wondering about how our future would look. As we were laughing, thinking, and discussing, we realized that none of us had told a guy that we love them. We realized that this situation was rare and that we need to embrace our independence by creating honorary "L-Cards" to keep until we give away our love to that special someone.

Through last year, one of us got a boyfriend, but none of us gave away that special card. Throughout this second year, though, all of my friends got a boyfriend and as of just a few hours ago, I found out that the last of my friends' L-cards would soon be given away to their significant others.

Though this may seem insignificant, and kind of silly to you but what that means is I'm the lone-standing L-card holder.

Though I may top list for most dates out of my close group of friends, I am the only one out of them to not find that someone special.

Maybe I have a fear of love, or maybe I'm just wise and cautious, but love is not something that you give out like dollar-store candy. It's precious. It's meant for that one person that you don't want to ever have to live without but that you would, without a doubt, give your life for.

So now my L-card and I are riding solo... and I will continue to drive until I find a co-pilot who's willing to enrich my journey.